Hey there! How was everyone’s weekend? Mine was stupendous (people don’t use that word enough). Anyways this past weekend Steve and I went out for his cousin’s surprise 25th birthday party. It was awesome.
We started the early evening off with some laser tag. We had to get the birthday girl out of the house so they could set up for the rest of the evening. I didn’t really know what to expect going into it so I just rolled with it.We walked in and there was loud music, some arcade games and a bunch of people there, most of whom were younger kids (I mean we were these at like 4:30) so I thought we would run around and have a nice leisurely game – boy was I wrong. Those kids were INTENSE. They would not let up. They were chasing us around and even after they shot you once they’d just follow you and keep shooting you in the back! We suspect that the amount of video games some of them likely play helped their skills. So for the second round our group of 7 decided to stick together and team up on the little hoodlums – they had to be taken down a peg. The second game was definitely better as a team. Laser tag was awesome and I love that it didn’t matter the age, everyone had a blast.
Once we finished up with laser tag it was time to surprise the birthday girl:
That would be Steve’s sister Amy, the birthday girl Lauren, and Steve’s other sister Erin
Seeing as it was a Mexican themed affair we enjoyed some delicious fajitas and burritos and other delicious fare. I made some bacon wrapped jalapeno poppers for the occasion.
We ate, drank and had a great time catching up with everyone. Some of us also went downtown for some dancing and a couple more drinks….
It was definitely a fun night out.
Sunday morning rolled around (1 hour earlier thanks to daylight savings) and Steve and I woke up and had our usual late breakfast:
Zucchini and cauliflower hash
I’m still tweaking the protein waffle recipe
Steve left shortly after breakfast as he was going to run some sprints with a couple of the guys from the gym – I love that he always goes above and beyond for his work, he really loves what he does.
Anyways, I was supposed to go out with my mom for a little mother daughter time but when I went to call her to arrange where to meet up I suddenly found myself feeling rather anxious. Sometimes I get anxious out of the blue with little or no warning (I’ve written about my anxiety before here). While I don’t get big attacks regularly anymore, I do still suffer from bouts of anxiety.
All of the sudden I felt very pressured, like I had a bunch of things I should be doing instead of just relaxing. I looked around our house and felt a huge burden as I noticed the little things that needed to be done. I called my mom and explained to her that I didn’t think I could go out as I needed to clean the house. Now my mom also suffers from anxiety – it’s a fun little family trait – so she knew exactly how I was feeling. Sometimes when I’m anxious I want things around me to be in order. So being awesome and seeing that she actually enjoys cleaning, weird I know, she offered to come over and help me out.
We cleaned the whole living area, including the baseboards, shag rug, tops of the cupboards, stove, toaster oven, and even did a little minor re-arranging. I totally forgot to snap some pictures but I’ll post some tomorrow as I’m just so happy with how everything looks right now.
It was a huge sigh of relief and we actually had a pretty good time doing it. We opened the patio doors, put on some good 90’s music and drank tea and ate my yummy protein cakes (which she couldn’t believe were healthy).
While I definitely feel like I have my anxiety under control compared to how it used to be, I still suffer from these little episodes every now and then. If I have a lot on my plate, or a bunch of events coming up sometimes I get a little overwhelmed. Sometimes I get overwhelmed for no apparent reason. I just all of the sudden get very upset and have sad thoughts that I can’t seem to get out of my head. I’ve learned that talking about my anxiety really helps me get through it. I’ve also discovered that when I have a general basic routine I do much better than if I’m all over the place.
I’ve found that exercise and eating well (eating well 90% of the time, 😉 ) really help me out too. Sometimes just a quick 5-10 min exercise burst is enough to help clear my head and calm me down. It also helps that Steve is incredible whenever I do happen to have an episode and is great at calming me down and talking me through it, no matter how silly it seems.
Anyways I don’t mean to ramble on I just wanted to let anyone out there who gets anxious over seemingly little things know that I totally understand. I understand that one minute you can be listening to a song and the next you can be hyperventilating and not really understand why, I get that falling asleep can sometimes feel impossible with your mind racing 1000 miles a minute, and I get that little things can take over and seem like a huge deal. I’ve been there, I still go there sometimes, and I understand where you’re coming from.
Never assume that everyone has it all together, no one is perfect.